READ: this is kinda hard to explain. its taken from rosalie’s quote in eclispe:
“He loves you more then you know. It terrifies him to be away from you.”.
and although most of the clips are from twilight, they represent every book, each time bella hurts edward. her love for jacob, and her pregnancy in breaking dawn and how jacob describes edwards pain. and also the fact the edward feels bella would be better off without him. anyway, if people like, i will finish and vid the whole song.

Plus: i need a new name for this video, suggestions very welcome.

But then.. OMG! 600 subscribers. i am so so happy, honestly, i never thought 10 people would sub! i wish i could thank you all individually. this one’s for you all.
All infomation is at the end of the video.
No copyright intended, i own nothing.

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Sorry I havent posted in a while. I’ve Been Busy and I’ve Had Writer’s Block. So…Here’s Chapter 13!!!!

*Ashley’s POV*
*It’s been about three weeks since Lila was born. And Kevin and I have gotten absolutely NO sleep. Having her is amazing, but I just wish we could get more sleep. The entire birth experience was indescribeble. As in it was more than horrible. Kevin’s parents are still getting used to having a grandchild. But they’ve warmed up to me. We were at a party, at Haylee’s house to celebrate Emily’s birthday. Everyone was there. Including all of Kevin’s family.*
Kevin-Hey Ashley *I heard him call from the living room. I walked in. He had Lila in his arms. She was screaming.*
Ashley-Yeah?
Kevin-Can you take her? I think she’s hungry.
Ashley-Yeah sure. *I took Lila from Kevin. As I was leaning in to get her, Kevin quickly kissed me on the cheek.*
Ashley-What was that for?
Kevin-I don’t know. I just felt like it. *He smiled at me. I smiled back. I grabbed a bottle from the diper bag and fed Lila. Kevin got up from where he was sitting and we walked into the kitchen where everyone was eating Emily’s bitrthday cake. I looked down at Lila. She was still eating. I loved her so much. Joe, Jessie, Nick, Haylee, and Emily walked over to us when they were done with their cake.*
Nick-Hey guys.
Jessie-How’s it goin? You know with the whole parent thing.
Ashley-It’s really really difficult. I’ll tell you that. Don’t get pregnant until you’re ready.
Haylee-Well, we know that Ash.
Ashley-Yeah. *I looked down at Lila again. She was sleeping now.*
Ashley-Kevin, do you wanna take her?
Kevin-Yeah. Absolutely. *Kevin gently took her from my arms. He walked into the living room with her. Nick and Joe followed. I turned back to the girls.*
Emily-Let’s go upstairs. We wanna talk to you. *She said looking at me.*
Ashley-Okay. *Jessie, Haylee, and Emily started walking upstairs. I followed. We got upstairs and went into Haylee’s room. When we got in there, Jessie and I sat on a little couch and Haylee and Emily sat on the bed. That’s when a tear ran down my cheek.*
Haylee-Ash, are you okay?
Jessie-Why are you crying?
Ashley-I don’t know. I guess…it’s all just too overwhelming.
Emily-What is?
Ashley-Having Lila. Dealing with it all. And lately, Kevin and I have been fighting more. I can’t do this.
Jessie-Yeah you can. You just have to get through this. You’ll get used to it. *I stopped crying a little.*
Ashley-Yeah. I guess you’re right. *We sat there for a few more minutes, then decided to go back downstairs.*
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WORST CHAPTER EVER! i’ll try to do better. i just couldnt lthink of anything. Comment and Rate!!

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Ok i decided not to stop Jonas High. Many people were goinq to unsubscribe and that kinda hurt my feelings but thats ok ;] But i am starting a new series as well as Jonas High. Any ideas give me a shout because i have major writers block! The trailer for my new story will be out next week im sure you guys will love it! Oh and special thanks to Jazzcrank for supporting me i love her shes super sweet! I love you guys and dont forget to comment!
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Dinner is really great. Joes mom is an amazing cook. Halfway through the dinner his dad came home.
Mr. Jonas: Hey everyone!
Kevin: Hi Dad
Mr. Jonas: Sorry Im late I got stuck in traffic.-Sits down-
Mrs. Jonas: Thats ok honey you didnt miss much.
Mr. Jonas: I guess I did because I dont know her-points at Erin- But im assuming your Erin.
Erin: Yes I am -smiles- Nice to meet you
Mr. Jonas: Like wise -smiles- I only knew that because its not everyday Joseph holds hands on the table top with someone-laughs-
Joe: -blushes- Well Erin and I have something to tell you
Everyone: Ok
Joe: Well Erin is pregnant.
Did I miss something? And it was defiantly not my period. What is wrong with him? Why did he just say that?
Mrs. Jonas: Thats wonderful! How long have you been?
Erin: -Speechless-
Joe: 2 months -smiles-
Kevin: Wow congrats dude
Nick: Yeah thats great im going to have a niece or nephew-smiles-
Mr. Jonas: Grandpa Jonas at your service -laughs-
We finished eating dinner and I stayed quiet the whole time with my head down. I helped Denise clean up and then I ran upstairs to see Joe fooling around with Nick.
Erin: Excuse me Joe but we need to talk NOW!
Joe:-laughing- About what?
Erin: Just follow me..
Joe: Ok be right back Nick
I walked into his room and locked the door behind me.
Erin: WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM YOU KNOW IM NOT PREGNANT!
Joe: I know, I know but I did that to see how they would handle it.
Erin: Please get to your point Joe because as of now Im furious with you.
Joe: I wanted to see how they would handle the thought of a baby and I was hoping you would re-think the whole baby thing.
Erin: Why would I do that?
Joe: Because you said yourself you would have my baby.
Erin: Yes but not now Joe! Im 17 years old I want to go to college and get married and get a career before I have any children! Why cant you understand this? -Runs her fingers through her hair-
Joe: I do understand I just. Really want a son or daughter.
Erin: Well Im sorry but im not ready to have a baby. -Walks out of the room and runs downstairs and out the front door-
Joe: Erin Wait!-Runs after her-
How could he be so selfish? Im so furious right now I cant stand it. When you love someone you are suppose to lookout for them and their feelings but Joe just wants what he wants and doesnt care what I want. I walked a couple more steps until my head started spinning and I became suddenly dizzy. My legs collapsed out from under me and I fell onto the sidewalk on my bad hip. I yelled in pain as my side crashed onto the pavement. I tried getting up but my legs felt like Jello it was impossible to stand. I heard footsteps in the distance and thats the last thing I heard before my eyes closed shut. The next morning I woke up in Joes bed he was holding me close to his chest. So close in fact it was difficult to breathe. I took my thumb and ran it across his cheek so I could wake him gently.
Joe: Erin! Oh baby you dont know how glad I am to see you.
Erin: What are you talking about?
Joe: You didnt wake up last night and I was beyond worried. I thought I lost you. You know for good I guess that would explain my wet shirt from crying all night.
Erin: I just fainted from exhaustion no big deal.
Joe: Are you kidding me it was a huge deal. How would you feel if you thought I died?
Erin: Mortified..
Joe: Then just think how I felt. -Wraps his arms around her- Im sorry for the whole baby thing I told everyone that you werent pregnant so dont worry
Erin: Its ok I forgive you. -Brushes his hair out of his eyes- And I want a baby
Joe: No you were right the first time we should wait.
Erin: Seriously Joe I want to have your baby right now.
Joe: No sorry I refuse to do this to you im not ruining your life
Erin: Please?
Joe: Well what about school?
Erin: We can skip just please Joe-pouts-
Joe: Fine we can have sex but im using a condom.
Erin: -Sighs- okay thats good enough I guess.
Joe: Thats good to hear. -Gets up and locks the bedroom door then takes off his shirt-
Erin: Wow your so hot. -giggles-
Joe: Are you sure your ready to do this?
Erin: Yes very sure
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GIVE ME SOME LOVE - James Blunt en vivo en Hong Kong Hasta que al fín lo pu8de subir ^^ Buscando algún video de Give me some love por mucho tiempo ya, hasta que me topé con esta excelente grabación realizada en el concierto que James Blunt ofreció en Hong Kong. No hubiera sido posible sin la ayuda del dueño del mismo video quien me prestó su ayuda otorgándome su video. Nuevamente le doy las gracias a mi amigo Oliver =D http://www.youtube.com/user/Hin4690 Si quieres ver el video original …

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Katie and Brad join Henry and Vienna for a poker game. When Vienna joins them she is infuriated because she found some brochures about vasectomies. When Katie learns Brad was in on it too she walks away, sad. Brad tries to talk to her but she drives off. Later, when he gets home he finds Katie collapsed on the floor and bleeding. He rushes her to the floor where he learns she had ectopic pregnancy caused because of the fertility drugs. When Katie wakes up after surgery they talk and Katie promises she’ll never lie to him again.

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[[A.N hi i havent really communicated in a while with u guys. well i just wanted to say...well idk i just felt i should say something. btw cheerpink...sumthing like that...ashley will be in more later on. kaythanksbye.
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Im kind of upset today. Im scared and confused and just, I dont know. Im sorry Im not my usual perky self that I always making fun of something, but right now, Im not in a laughing mood.
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At school, Nick and I were eating at lunch. I was picking at my food, mindlessly, and not paying any attention to a word he was saying.
"Kate, are you listening to me" he whined
"Mhm" yah. right
"Oh, okay Kevins pregnant"
"Yah" I sighed.
"Kate, youre not listening. Did you hear what I just said?"
"What?" I snapped out of it.
"Okay, what happened? Youve been acting spacey all day and all Smiley. Its weird and annoying. Are you on drugs" he lowered his voice so no one heard. I glared at him.
"So, then what is up with you"
I looked down and smiled. I glanced up at Joe who was on the other side of the lunchroom and then back at Nick. His eyebrows furrowed and he turned to where I looked. I heard him gasp.
"He didnt" he turned back to me
I looked down again and felt my face turn hot.
"He kissed you!?" yah, say it louder
"Well, its not like it was a out of nowhere. Its difficult to explain"
"He kissed you?" he gasped again
"Yes nick, our lips touched" I smiled.
He looked down and then blinked in astonishment.
"Well, how do you feel" he smiled at me"
"How do you think I feel. Spacey and Smiley, hello!"
"So you for surely like him" he anticipated.
"Im pretty positive" I felt my insides turn.
His smile kind of faded as I watched him in thought
"No, I dont want you getting involved with him. Hes going to break you heart like he does to every other girl, your going to get hurt"
"You cant tell me what to do!"
"Youre going to get hurt" he repeated while rolling his eyes.
"I beg to differ" I folded my arms across my chest
"Listen to me; you know about his commitment problems."
"So" I mumbled.
"So, I care about you a lot and I dont want your heart broken over someone thats not worth it"his eyes were full of concern.
"You dont give your brother enough credit"I huffed.
"Please Kate"
"Please what? What would you like me to do?"
"Dont chase him, let him chase you" Nick smiled to himself. "If he wants you that bad, he wont give up"
"Im not going to lead him on"
"Your not leading him on if you like him too, you idiot. Just play hard to get and dont always be so available. Go have a life"
"Well, excuse me"
"Kate, do you trust me?"
"Yes, of course" I groaned
"Then can you please just listen to me" he gave me his best smile
I didnt want to listen. But I trusted Nick, and he wouldnt try to hurt me. He just wanted whats best.
"Ill try but Im not guaranteeing anything"
"Just, promise you will atleast try"
"Promise" I gave in

When I got home...

I walked through my door and my mouth dropped. My mom was walking down the stairs. She stopped dead in her tracks when she saw me. She was about to turn around and walk back up the stairs but I stopped her.
"Mom, Wait" I protested
She turned around slowly and looked at me. She didnt say anything; she was just like studying me, like I was some sculpture.
"Why are you hiding from me? Can we please just talk?"
She looked like she was about to cry. She cannot still be upset over my dad.
"Im, Im sorry"She whispered and left
I watched her go back up the steps and into her room. She locked her door. I just stood there at the bottom of the steps speechless. I wanted to cry. My mom hasnt come out of her room in years. I forgot what she looked like until now. Why does she hate me? Was it my fault my dad left? I felt an overwhelming power come over me and I felt faintish. I sat on the couch and grabbed my phone from my backpack. I called Nick but he didnt answer. I called Ashley and she was at her dads house. No one to talk to, just great.
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So, that was my day. Ive got to say, seeing my mom took a real toll on me. I sometimes forgot she was even still in the house. What kind of parent lock themselves in there room and never comes out to check on there child? For all she knows, I could be pregnant.
-Kaitlin

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Me- (takes a deep breath)ok, I had just graduated, I was 18 and glad to be on my own. Little did I know that life alone is difficult. Well I met this guy, Steven, and he was so sweet, and he swept me off my feet. I thought he was the one. Well, I got pregnant. When we told our parents they said that we either had to get married or live together like a married couple, we chose just to live with each other until we had enough money for a real wedding. It worked for a while, until Laci was born. She was so precious, so small. I dont know what happened to Steven, but he changed, for the worse. He would go out and get drunk and come home and (looks at Kevin, then at the floor) then he would rape me, I was so afraid to leave Laci with him that I took her to work everyday. He would beat me and yell at me, telling me I was worthless and that having Laci was a mistake. I put up with it, until Laci turned one. It was the day of her birthday, I was getting dressed when I heard a scream. I ran into the kitchen to find Steven slapping Laci across the face and yelling at her that she was a mistake. I ran over and pulled him off of her, grabbed Laci and ran out the door. I ran down the stairs and made it to the street before he caught us. He shoved me down on the sidewalk and was hitting me in the face yelling that I wasnt going anywhere that I was his and that he could do what he wanted with me and Laci. I could hear Laci crying next to me, then a cop car pulled up and pulled Steven off of me. They took him away and I havent seen him since that day. As far as I know he still lives in that apartment in Atlanta, Georgia. My friends, especially Meredith since she already lived near here, helped move us down here. And ive been living here ever since. (by now she is in tears, hugging her knees to her chest and trying to calm herself down, but she cant seem to get a grip)
Kevin- (looks at her, then mover closer putting his arm around her and pulls her closer to him) Jennifer, im so sorry!
Me- (still crying, but now is resting her head on his chest) its just that every guy since has changed and not wanted to stay with me after they found out about Laci. Then tonight when I saw the expression on your face when Laci yelled mommy and I answered, I thought you were going to be the same as all the rest.
Kevin-(just holds her closer in his arms)
I cant believe I just told Kevin all about my life! Gosh jen, youve only known the guy a week! Oh well, at least now he knows now! He held me in his arms while I cried, eventually I cried myself to sleep in his arms on my living room couch.
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Wow! So, whatcha think?
They fell asleep together! What is Sam gonna think when she sees them?
Will things between Kevin and Jen change?
Find out in the next chapter!

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**Excuse me, but did you know I love you? xD you guys are awesome. 251 subs already? Lol, keep this up and ill post more episodes

*with Jemi*
Joe:*lays next to her and kisses her forehead*
are you feeling okay?
Demi:*smiles* im great.
Joe:do you need anything? or–
Demi:*cuddles into him* all i need is you.
Joe:*chuckles* less work for me.
Demi:Joey, im not tired yet.
Joe:but you cant stay up late, remember? and your not going to work now, kaye?
Demi:waht, why?
Joe:you heard the doctor. i dont want anything to happen to the both of you.
Demi:but who will do my job?
Joe:im sure your secretary will do it. or maybe you can get a representative for you.
Demi:well waht am i supposed to do here?
Joe:we’ll figure something out.
Demi:but Joe–
Joe:no buts, Demi. you’re not going, period.
Demi:why are you doing this? *plays with his fingers*
Joe:why are you being so difficult?
Demi:*sighs* nothing will happen to us.
Joe:if you do waht i say.
Demi:you really want this, dont you?
Joe:more than anything, Dems. and having it with you makes it even better.
Demi:*smiles* good to know.
Joe:go to sleep, babe.
Demi:im not tired yet, lets do something.
Joe:Demi-
Demi:i agrred to not go to work, at least let me stay up.
Joe:*sighs* okay then.
Demi:waht should we do?
Joe:*smiles* lets think of names.
Demi:but we dont have the gender yet.
Joe:thats okay, we can just create some.
Demi:okay, lets start with waht gender you want.
Joe:*smiles* a boy.
Demi:*groans* a boy? you already have Adam.
Joe:but still, boys are better. you wont have to worry about them getting boyfriends, and you can teach them more stuff.
Demi:*rolls eyes*
Joe:*chuckles* but we’ll still have to worry about that, though. i mean we’ll have a boy, then a girl, then another boy, then a girl, then a bo-
Demi:JOE! i didnt give birth yet, and you already want more babies?
Joe:*smiles* yep.
Demi:do you know how hard it is to give birth?
Joe:*jokingly frowns* you dont want babies with me?
Demi:you know its not like that, Joe.
Joe:*smiles and wraps his arms around her* we’ll have a billion children. half of them will be mini Demis and the other will be mini Joes. *smiles wider* wanna know how much we’ll have?
Demi:*laughs* how much?
Joe:the same amount of sand grains on the beach. *smiles*
Demi:*laughs* okay, so if we did have a boy, waht will we name him?
Joe:hmm, it should have the first letter of our names.
Demi:*smiles* Joseph Daniel.
Joe:oo, i like it. it sounds cute. where’d you get that from?
Demi:*smiles* it reminds me of you.
Joe:*smiles* how?
Demi:like you said, its cute. *smiles*
Joe:*laughs* im that irresistable.
Demi:*laughs* waht about if its a girl?
Joe:*smiles* Jasmine Jade. wanna know why?
Demi:why?
Joe:your just like a jade. precious, shiny, elegant, and beautiful. *smiles*
Demi:*smiles* i love it.
Joe:*holds her tighter* i love you.
Demi:*smiles* i love you too.
Joe:*starts humming and rocks her in his arms*
Demi:*slowly drifts to sleep*

*the next morning*
Demi:*wakes up and feels sick*
Joe:*comes out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist* good morn–
Demi:*runs in the bathroom and pukes*
Joe:*runs over and holds her hair* not really a good morning is it?
Demi:*pukes some more*
Joe:guess not.
[[after 2 mins]]
Demi:*coughs* let the torture begin.
Joe:its not that bad. *flushes the puke*
Demi:*brushing her teeth and spits* try saying that after a few weeks of smelling puke.
Joe:*wrinkles his nose* eww, you’re right.
Demi:*laughs* i always am.
Joe:*rolls eyes* being pregnant can get you big headed.
Demi:*laughs and walks out*
Joe:*follows her*
Demi:it has its advantages though.
Joe:like waht?
Demi:*smiles* you have to do wahtever i want.
Joe:*sarcastic* oh joy.
Demi:*laughs*

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[Willie D]
I’ve never been played by a ho!
If the is acting stupid,
She’s got to go!
Some muthafuckers get sad
If she with me, I’ma kick her little monkey ass!
See you hoes got it wrong!
think since a nigga say he loves ya, he ain’t strong.
Bitch you takin’ the wrong way
And I can tell right now. It’s gonna be a long day!

[Bushwick Bill]
I got to educate you brothas
If the won’t give up the play
fuck her!
Move along to the next trick.
See I’m the type a nigga that tell a ho
“suck dick!”

[Willie D]
what if she’s not suckin’

[Bushwick Bill]
That’s a waste of time, conversation and my fuckin’
I just put my pants on
And tell the idiotic freak
to take her tramp home!

[Willie D]
Cause I don’t need a dummy
I need a to lick nuts
until my dick is cummin’
And after that, you’ll earn your gloves
HA HA… Just call me the gangster of love.

I like bitches
All kind of bitches,
To take off my shirt
and pull down my britches
If shes got big tities
I squeeze ‘em and hold’em
while she suck my dick and lick my scrotum

[Bushwick Bill]
And If she got a friend I’ll her too
Together we can play a game of switcheroo
I ain’t the type who gets all mushy
I like to sit back
and watch them eat each other’s pussy!

[Willie D]
Weak people might say we’re insane
But that’s the other fuckin’ level of the game
I’ll turn your sister out if she with me
You want to know my identity???

[Bushwick Bill]
Bitches look at me like I’m a faker
Knowing well
I’m a mutherfuckin heartbreaker!
I’ll have them crying for months
Cause I done their best friends
and put a whipping on their cunts
They have their mothers to call
but, if you one mom,
You done them all
And I really don’t give a fuck
Cause if your mom offers me the pussy
she’s stuck

[Willie D]
Now thats the type of nigga I am,
I’m always game to run a train, god-damn…
six different hoes a night,
i use lubricated rubbers, to make the feel right
better safe then be a victim,
if ya got a jimmy hat, go ahead and dick em.
I put the in its place,
and right before i nut, i pull it out, then to the face,
and tell the to keep suckin
and prepare herself for her first but fuckin.
Then when i’m done, straight to the tub, haha…
Just call me the Gangster of Love.

I’m a mother fucker, i put a to the test
if she dont pass, she dont get blessed.
If the test consists, of my whole crew.
then bitch, god-damn, thats what you gotta do.
You say you wanna be down with Willie-D,
but yet you find it difficult to listen to me,
everytime you up and skip a class,
imma put my god-damn foot in your ass.
And if your father wants to buck-up,
I’ll beat the wrinkles out that old mothafucka.
I treat a like a queen,
but she has to realize I’m the king.

[Bushwick Bill]
Some jealous punk in town,
told my girl i was around, and she’s still down.
to do the same, you gotta have game,
you wanna know my name?
(Call me the Gangster of Love)

[Willie D]
Say bill,

[Bushwick Bill]
wassup B

[Willie D]
all the hoes mad at us cause we aint paying for the pussy
and fighting over their and shit
but thats the other level of the game again

[Bushwick Bill]
damn straight

[Willie D]
say man, while we on the subject of hoes,
what ever happened to that hoe you used to with named cathy

[Bushwick Bill]
Oh cathy, that hoe was hot,
the first piece of that i ever got.
she me til i was cummin,
put my nuts in her mouth, and started hummin.
i said, shit, um its ejecting.
she started scratching my dillbag and said hold up a second.
turn me over on my back gold,
opened up my butt cheeks and started lickin out my asshole.
thats why i guess that im the gangsta.
and oh ya, cathleen johnson, sweetheart, i’d like to thank ya.

[Willie D]
Little hoes out there are getting stuck,
by niggaz like me and we really dont give a fuck.
big titties and a sexy switch,
whatever you got, you deserved it bitch.

See, ah, i like to take em fast,
act like i love em, and dog ther ass.
like for instance miss P,
the ran a game and tried to over me.
but i assisted in the makin,
talking bout she pregnant.

[Bushwick Bill]
“with you or that jamaican”?

[Willie D]
She said me of course,
so i drug her little like a mother horse.
thats what you get for trying to play me,
i’ll kick a smack dead in the ass, if she ever say we,
made a kid when i make it,
I’ll grab her by her motherfuckin’ neck
and try to break it!
Cause I knew I wore a glove
You know who you with bitch???
just call me the Gangsta of love.

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I put Jacob in his bed, gave him a kiss on the cheek, and then left to my room. I had so many emotions. I pulled the covers over my head and listened to the pounding rain. I began crying silently thinking about everything. I really like nick but then again i think after seeing joe again…I still might have a tinge of love for him. I mean…that summer, there was such a strong powerful connection I thought we would be together forever…but nothing works out the way you planned. Joe was my first true love and they never ever lose a place in your heart…and now that Joe is back in my life…I dont know what to do. And then the thing with my brother…its sad…knowing he could be shot or blown up any day. And he would so disapprove of me seeing any Jonas. So would my parents. I think it would be safest to stay with Nick…but what about my feelings for Joe. Im not going to be in a relationship and be in love with someone else…thats just wrong. Nick is the type of guy I can see with me and acts the perfect way and does the right things and makes me smile…I could see myself falling in love with him…but the fact that I already love Joe makes it all the more complicated. Joe makes you laugh when youre sad and he says the right things and knows how to treat a girl. He might have cheated on me, but that didnt change how I really felt about him. This is so difficult. Maybe Ill just ignore my feelings for Joe and finally move on with my life. But its easier said than done. Everyday I wake up to a crazy two year old who reminds me of every bit of Joe. I finally fell asleep. I woke up with tear stained cheeks. I took a shower and stayed in there a while…just thinking. I got out and got dressed. I threw my hair in a messy bun and then went downstairs…tomorrows Sunday…which means the next days Monday and I have to see Nick. I wish I could go out but noooo im grounded. Ugh my moms a P.I.T.A [[pain in the ass]]. I saw my dad in the Kitchen making coffee. Jacob was sitting at the kitchen table coloring. I went over and sat in front of him. Jacob: look minna, its us He drew a picture of him and me holding his hand. I smiled and rubbed his head Madison: that looks great buddy Jacob kept coloring and my dad poured me some coffee. I got up and put some apple juice in a sippie cup for Jacob and then sat back down. My dad looked at me for a second and then back at his waffles. Mdad: so hows school Madison: okay, I guess Mdad: okay? Madison: its hard, you know, without Erin What I really wanted to say is No its not okay because I just found out that the boy I like is brothers with the boy I love who got me knocked up and if you ever found out they were even a mile near me you would basically murder them. Mdad: be back Madison: dont be so sure Jacob: minna, look I added Erin Jacob shoved his picture in my face…and there he was. Erin standing there with me and Jacob…we all looked dysfunctional but it was still cute Madison:[laughs] that looks great, do you want me to hang it in your room Jacob: yah! He got all excited and started spazzing. I calmed him down. Madison: okay but first you need to go clean up and get dressed, okay, go upstairs and Ill be right there to help you with your bath Jacob: okay He ran up the stairs with his picture in his hand. I laughed and then looked back at my dad whose face intrigued me. Madison: what? Dad: you act as if nothing is wrong with this picture Madison: hes two; he doesnt have a very steady hand Dad: I mean this picture as in you parenting him. It looks bad…an 18 year old doing something like that Madison: its not my fault you wont take care of him…so someone has to Dad: its not my fault you got pregnant in the first place Here we go again. Another stupid talk/argument. Ugh! This happens like once a month and I guess its that time a month…I would much rather have my other monthly visitor than this one. Madison: not again dad, it was a mistake! Dad: yah a permanent one Madison: you think I dont know that! At least Im responsible for my actions and I can take care of and support him Dad: thats not the point; you should be focused on getting into college Madison: I am! Im an A, B, student, Jacob isnt that huge of a distraction if anything its… I almost let it slip. I was about to say Jonas but I kept it in my mouth. My dad gave me a puzzled look. He studied my face for a second and then sighed Dad: what are you hiding? As if my eyes were open doors. I can never keep a secret from my parents…there like stalkers or something! Madison: what are you talking about? ———- *gasp*

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