I put Jacob in his bed, gave him a kiss on the cheek, and then left to my room. I had so many emotions. I pulled the covers over my head and listened to the pounding rain. I began crying silently thinking about everything. I really like nick but then again i think after seeing joe again…I still might have a tinge of love for him. I mean…that summer, there was such a strong powerful connection I thought we would be together forever…but nothing works out the way you planned. Joe was my first true love and they never ever lose a place in your heart…and now that Joe is back in my life…I dont know what to do. And then the thing with my brother…its sad…knowing he could be shot or blown up any day. And he would so disapprove of me seeing any Jonas. So would my parents. I think it would be safest to stay with Nick…but what about my feelings for Joe. Im not going to be in a relationship and be in love with someone else…thats just wrong. Nick is the type of guy I can see with me and acts the perfect way and does the right things and makes me smile…I could see myself falling in love with him…but the fact that I already love Joe makes it all the more complicated. Joe makes you laugh when youre sad and he says the right things and knows how to treat a girl. He might have cheated on me, but that didnt change how I really felt about him. This is so difficult. Maybe Ill just ignore my feelings for Joe and finally move on with my life. But its easier said than done. Everyday I wake up to a crazy two year old who reminds me of every bit of Joe. I finally fell asleep. I woke up with tear stained cheeks. I took a shower and stayed in there a while…just thinking. I got out and got dressed. I threw my hair in a messy bun and then went downstairs…tomorrows Sunday…which means the next days Monday and I have to see Nick. I wish I could go out but noooo im grounded. Ugh my moms a P.I.T.A [[pain in the ass]]. I saw my dad in the Kitchen making coffee. Jacob was sitting at the kitchen table coloring. I went over and sat in front of him. Jacob: look minna, its us He drew a picture of him and me holding his hand. I smiled and rubbed his head Madison: that looks great buddy Jacob kept coloring and my dad poured me some coffee. I got up and put some apple juice in a sippie cup for Jacob and then sat back down. My dad looked at me for a second and then back at his waffles. Mdad: so hows school Madison: okay, I guess Mdad: okay? Madison: its hard, you know, without Erin What I really wanted to say is No its not okay because I just found out that the boy I like is brothers with the boy I love who got me knocked up and if you ever found out they were even a mile near me you would basically murder them. Mdad: be back Madison: dont be so sure Jacob: minna, look I added Erin Jacob shoved his picture in my face…and there he was. Erin standing there with me and Jacob…we all looked dysfunctional but it was still cute Madison:[laughs] that looks great, do you want me to hang it in your room Jacob: yah! He got all excited and started spazzing. I calmed him down. Madison: okay but first you need to go clean up and get dressed, okay, go upstairs and Ill be right there to help you with your bath Jacob: okay He ran up the stairs with his picture in his hand. I laughed and then looked back at my dad whose face intrigued me. Madison: what? Dad: you act as if nothing is wrong with this picture Madison: hes two; he doesnt have a very steady hand Dad: I mean this picture as in you parenting him. It looks bad…an 18 year old doing something like that Madison: its not my fault you wont take care of him…so someone has to Dad: its not my fault you got pregnant in the first place Here we go again. Another stupid talk/argument. Ugh! This happens like once a month and I guess its that time a month…I would much rather have my other monthly visitor than this one. Madison: not again dad, it was a mistake! Dad: yah a permanent one Madison: you think I dont know that! At least Im responsible for my actions and I can take care of and support him Dad: thats not the point; you should be focused on getting into college Madison: I am! Im an A, B, student, Jacob isnt that huge of a distraction if anything its… I almost let it slip. I was about to say Jonas but I kept it in my mouth. My dad gave me a puzzled look. He studied my face for a second and then sighed Dad: what are you hiding? As if my eyes were open doors. I can never keep a secret from my parents…there like stalkers or something! Madison: what are you talking about? ———- *gasp*

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I heard somebody behind me and turned on my heel, to see Hayley stood grinning at me.

“You!” I whisper, shouted.
“You didn’t enjoy it?” she asked, disappointed.
“Hayley, we were watching a freakin’ movie.”
“It’s not like you didn’t already have one.” she laughed. “You were enjoying seeing other girls naked.” she said, sadly.
“Hayls, I’m a guy, it’s what we do.” I stated. “Always know that I prefer seeing you naked.” I told her.
“I’m sure that can be arranged.” she smirked.

I did a double take as Hayley began moving the strap on her dress, off her shoulder and letting it fall loosly. She teased me, turning her back as she began un-zipping it.

“Hayley, I really think we should stop.” I finally said.
“What?” she asked, shocked.
“After what we caught Nick and Riley doing, I think we should set an example.”
“Kev, you’ve been setting an example for 20 years, have some fun.” she joked.
“As much as I want to. And believe me, I really want to. I just can’t.”
“I suppose your right. The last thing I need is a pregnant sister.”
“How about we keep to our other promise.”
“One month sounds perfect.” she smiled.

Joe’s POV

Ewww! I could not believe I had just seen that. Kevin disappeared upstairs and Hayley followed after him. What were they, 16?

“Did you guys see that?” I asked, hesitantly.
“Totally.” Nick agreed, wincing from the memory.

I let out a sigh of relief.

“They must think we’re retards for not seeing them go at it on the couch.” Carson muttered.
“You reckon thats what they’re doing upstairs?” Nick asked.
“I don’t want to know.” Riley said, shuddering at a messed up vision.

Just then, Hayley and Kevin came back downstairs, looking happy and excited.

“Oh God!” I yelled.
“What is it Joe?” Kevin asked.
“You guys totally did it upstairs!” I moaned.
“No, we didn’t Joe.” he yelled back.
“Why are you so happy?” I asked.
“We’re not allowed to be happy?” Hayley asked.
“Well I deffinetly know Kevin was getting happy.” I said, sniggering.
“Oh man! Why’d you have to say that Joe.” Kevin wailed.
“Why’d you have to do it on the couch is a better question my brother.” Nick added, laughing along with the rest of us.
“Let’s just forget what you saw alright?” Hayley suggested.
“I’m trying, I think I’m scared for life.” Carson said.

We all sat down to watch the end of the movie, smiles plastered across our faces.

Riley’s POV

I was so happy for Hayley and Kevin. But did they have to be all over each other! After speaking with them I realise I want to wait until after marriage, even though I love Nick. I know Hayley didn’t regret what happened between her and Kevin, but I’d rather wait. Plus, I know how special it would be to Nick if we waited.

“You ready for bed?” Nick asked me softly.

I must have dozed off into a dream world because the movie was over, and everybody was moving upstairs to sleep.

“Yeah sure.” I whispered, lifting myself from the couch.

Kevin and Hayley had decided to stay downstairs on the couches so myself and Nick got the parents bedroom. I walked into the bathroom to change into my PJ’s, which I’d brought over along with my sleepover stuff. Guess it wasn’t a girly night anymore. I was wearing pale blue shorts and a pink tank top, and had left my hair flowing loosly over my shoulders.

“You look great.” Nick said, as I entered the bedroom.
“Thanks.” I said, drowsily.

I plonked down onto the bed and closed my eyes, awaiting a deep sleep. Nick jumped in beside me, wrapping his arms around me and holding me close.

“Don’t you find it difficult to sleep like that?” I asked him, curiously.
“I don’t sleep like this. I wait for you to fall asleep then turn over.” he said.
“Why?”
“Because I love watching you sleep.” he whispered.
“That’s so sweet.” I cooed, kissing his lips gently. “Night.”
“Night Riles.”

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So, today I was on sabatical from school…..which means I was ill and didn’t go lol. The flu got to me so I stayed home.

Last full day for me tomorrow So excited!

Plus, my nan is back in Hospital. She isn’t doing as good as before so….we’ll see.

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“Why wouldn’t you fit into your dress? That’s what fittings are for…” Here it comes. She couldn’t put it off any longer.
“Joe…I’m pregnant.” Unlike Nick, who didn’t see the problem when he first heard it, Joe was highly aware of what this meant. She was pregnant, but not with him.
“What?” he asked softly, sounding very hurt.
“I’m so sorry!”
“You cheated on me?” She just nodded into his chest. It took him a minute to process it, but once he did, he automatically let go of her, making her look up at him. “Sienna, how could you?!” he yelled, getting mad.
“I didn’t want it!” she yell-sobbed back. He rolled his eyes.
“Oh, I’m sure Siee. You don’t mean to have sex with some guy other than your fiancée?!”
“I know, I’m awful! But I didn’t want to! He forced me!”
“He forced you? Who forced you?”
“Austin! He said he was going to kill Ellie, so I had to and—Joe I’m so sorry. I should’ve been a better parent and girlfriend. I’m so awful.” Joe finally got it. She didn’t cheat on him. Austin raped her. He grabbed her arm and pulled her back to him, rubbing her back again. He himself was trying to fight back tears from hearing how awful Austin had been to her.
“Siee, you’re not awful. He is.”
“But I am!” she cried.
“No you’re not. You’re the most amazing person ever. Please don’t cry.”
“Do you hate me?”
“No, of course I don’t hate you.” She finally looked up at him. He wiped the tears off her face before giving her a quick kiss.
“What am I supposed to do with it?” she asked hesitantly. He shrugged.
“Keep it?” he said, forcing a laugh. She didn’t find it funny.
“I know its mean, but…I don’t want to have to raise this kid and ALWAYS see Austin in it! I can’t take that.”
“Well, what are you suggesting you do?” he asked. She looked at him, her decision clear in her eyes. He quickly shook his head. “No. No abortion.”
“Joe! What else is there to do?”
“We’ll keep it. It can be like Kevin and Tiffany, since she’s not his real daughter. Just, Siee, no abortion.”
“That’s different though. Tiffany’s not the product of a rape!”
“But Natalie still hates Luke. You hate Austin. We all do. But we can’t kill the baby.”
“But—”
“Siee, just think about it, okay?
“Joe—”
“THINK, about it. Please?” She closed her eyes tight, taking in a deep breath. She moved away from Joe and grabbed Ellie, beginning to walk off. Joe sighed in frustration. “Siee, where are you going?” he asked.
“‘To think about it’” she said in a mocking tone. He moaned and fell back into the small chair in the room. Why was she being so difficult about this?!?!

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I don’t know why this wasn’t showing :/

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The Blue Man group and a bunch of little kid artists visit the Today show and paint Tiki Barber a whole bunch of magical colors.

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Hi! I would like to know how much bleeding did you have in early pregnancy?

Did you mistake it for your period?

All experiences appreciated!
Thanks to all who answered. I was curious about bleeding during early pregnancy because I'm currently having a watery red period, but I have an incredible sense of smell so I'm still hopeful. Plus I have no period symptoms like I normally do.

but I know I shouldn't be too hopeful, but I can't help myself
All pregnancies are different. With my first one, I had my period for the first six months. Nothing really heavy just spotting. Then my second and third I didn't even spot. Once I was pregnant it stopped. But with my last pregnancy, I had a full period for the full nine months. But like I said before all pregnancies are different. Good Luck!!!

Hi! I would like to know how much bleeding did you have in early pregnancy?

Did you mistake it for your period?

All experiences appreciated!
Thanks to all who answered. I was curious about bleeding during early pregnancy because I'm currently having a watery red period, but I have an incredible sense of smell so I'm still hopeful. Plus I have no period symptoms like I normally do.

but I know I shouldn't be too hopeful, but I can't help myself
All pregnancies are different. With my first one, I had my period for the first six months. Nothing really heavy just spotting. Then my second and third I didn't even spot. Once I was pregnant it stopped. But with my last pregnancy, I had a full period for the full nine months. But like I said before all pregnancies are different. Good Luck!!!

Chapter 5

***at about 4 A.M. in the morning upstairs***

Alli: *hears the baby cry hits Joe* Joe wake up it’s your turn to get the baby

Joe: ugh *rolls over*

Alli: Joseph go get the baby! Now!!!

Joe: please Alli

Alli: JOSEPH NOW!!! *hears the baby stop crying*

Joe: she stopped

Alli: *sits up* JOSEPH ADAM JONAS IF I HAVE TO KICK YOUR IN THERE I WILL NOW GO!!!

Joe: I’m going *leaves and walks into the nursery and finds Mr. Smith holding and rocking Michelle* Hello Mr. Smith

Mr. Smith: son you need to learn to get up and take care of your baby *hands her to Joe* get up next time *leaves*

Joe: *scared look on his face* hey baby girl your granddad scares me too I know your not scared are you because your daddy’s little girl

Alli: *standing in the doorway* Joe, Joe, Joe, will you ever learn to do what I tell you *walks over to Joe and Michelle*

Joe: she’s asleep *puts her back in her crib* why are you up anyway

Alli: I heard you guys talking

Jessie: *walks out of her room carrying a blanket and a pillow*

Alli: hey Jess why are you up?

Jessie: take a wild guess *walks downstairs to the couch and finds Nick already asleep on it* why me?

Nick: *opens his eyes* hi

Jessie: can you get off so I can pull it out *it’s a pull out couch that you can make into a bed*

Nick: ugh *rolls over*

Jessie: okay Mr. Difficult *pulls him off the couch* ha *pulls out the couch and lays down on it*

Nick: *Lies down next to her and wraps his arms around her waist and pulls her close and they fall asleep*

***in the morning***

Jessie: *wakes up and rolls over to find Nick awake and running his fingers through her hair*

Nick: why’d you cut your hair when I run my hands through it then feel air it feels weird

Jessie: good morning to you too

Nick: I love you

Jessie: I love you too *kisses him*

***in the kitchen***

Mr. Smith: so you let them sleep in the same bed sometimes

Christina: it’s only once in while mostly when she missed you guys

Mr. Smith: they are 2 hormonal teenagers (Jessie and Nick)

Mrs. Smith: I think it’s sweet

Kevin: we trust them

Mr. Smith: and I suppose you trusted Alli and Joe

Christina: dad Alli and Joe are on one side of them and these walls are paper thin

Mr. Smith: how do you know that?

Jessie: *walks in with Nick behind her* because I just heard every word of your conversation thanks for trusting me dad I’m not like Alli and Alli technically was an adult when it happened

Mr. Smith: I guess your right

Jessie: thank you *hugs him*

Nick: happy birthday baby

Jessie: thank you *kisses him*

Christina/Mrs. Smith/Kevin: happy birthday

Jessie: thank you

Christina: I made breakfast and I made your favorite chocolate chip pancakes

Jessie: awesome!!!

Kevin: and bacon, eggs, toast, normal pancakes, and muffins

Jessie: are we trying to feed an army

Kevin: no just Joe and Alli

Christina: *laughs* it was horrible when Alli was pregnant she ate everything

Alli: *walks in the kitchen and grabs a muffin and stuffs it in her mouth* what?

Jessie: Alli chew before you talk

*they all sit down to eat*

OMJ!!! people i’m sos orry this took so long my computer is retarded!!! and so is my dads i’m on his i’m getting a brand new pink laptop *does a happy dance* i hate all the computers in this house because they’re all old and RETARDED!!!

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Hi! I would like to know how much bleeding did you have in early pregnancy?

Did you mistake it for your period?

All experiences appreciated!
Thanks to all who answered. I was curious about bleeding during early pregnancy because I'm currently having a watery red period, but I have an incredible sense of smell so I'm still hopeful. Plus I have no period symptoms like I normally do.

but I know I shouldn't be too hopeful, but I can't help myself
All pregnancies are different. With my first one, I had my period for the first six months. Nothing really heavy just spotting. Then my second and third I didn't even spot. Once I was pregnant it stopped. But with my last pregnancy, I had a full period for the full nine months. But like I said before all pregnancies are different. Good Luck!!!

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